Curious
When I was young I had a girlfriend that I loved. When life tore us apart it took a lot to recover and get back on my feet. Even after years there would be those moments when I would be staring at the starry sky and think about her. I would wonder if she was happy, if she was healthy, if she still thought of me, if she still missed me. Her memory haunted in the places she used to fill. I was fine though. It was not as if I was hung up on the past. Then one day things started popping up on my Facebook and Instagram feed. And I started clicking pictures. After few pictures I closed my computer because I felt emotions riling up. It was a rather confusing moment because I did not think that a few pictures could stir me up that way. My best friend, and cousin, gave me a CD by Andy Mineo that had a track titled “Curious.” When I heard it, the track hit home. It was as if Andy had written the song for me. In the last stanza he says, “ "I asked my homie what to do He said, 'Boy, listen here 'cause I'm finna tell the truth. Everybody think about they ex's, even if you got kids, married to your best friend In them memories are easily made but hard to forget Cause they etched up in your heart, the good times and regrets It's curiosity get you in trouble, specially if it's forbidden kind that you run to
Ah man yeah you're more sensitive then you'll ever admit So be careful who you make memories with. The secret is to learn what it means to be content And celebrate what God's given not the things He didn't. Our heart is always longing for more and it wanna bug out That's why we gotta drink from that water that never run out' But sometimes I'm still curious… Sometimes I'm still curious." I realized that the conflict I was having ran deeper than just a memory. I had a problem, a real one: I was not content. It’s crazy how this issue stirs up other issues. Like insecurity and dissatisfaction. There are times when I am not content with my clothes, my car, my TV, my aquarium, my guitars, my computer, and so on. There is always a curiosity as to whether life would be better would we have this or that. Writing to his young pupil Paul wrote, “Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment, for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content.” (1 Tim 6:6-8) Paul says there is great gain in godliness with contentment. I think I am starting to understand. Curiosity didn't just kill the cat, it also made millions miserable. Thanks Andy for reminding me that “the secret is to learn what it means to be content and celebrate what God's given not the things He didn't.”
